Monday, January 19, 2026

To my mom, January 19

Monday, January 19, 1981

          Hi baby! Today I saw the doctor and I’m pleased to say that I have now been carrying you for 6 ½ months. You’re moving around a lot, more and more each day—it makes me happy to know that you are so active, sometimes I just can’t help but laugh when I feel your little fluttering kicks.

Monday, January 19, 2026

          Hi Mom! It's been 45 years since you put those words to paper. I'm so grateful I got to read it to you in its entirety before the end. I had never read it before, so it was an exciting discovery. Paired with what became, it may seem strange to have experienced some level of joy amid the sorrow. Very fitting though given you wrote them to me as I was coming into the world, and I read them to you as you were leaving.
          I dedicate these entries to respond in kind to your loving messages so as to correspond with the same days you did them throughout the year. May they be a forever monument to the kind of mother you were. I love you and miss you.

My mom died on January 7, 2026. She was 70 years old. It was both her time and not her time.

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